Sunday, November 20, 2005
Contemplations of life
My thoughts on life. I was talking to my friend Greg and I loved it because he was so apt on knowing truth and what happiness really looked like and when he could be completely real with himself. What would it look like if I was completely real with myself and searched for truth? I would stop helping out where in ministries I was forced...then I would instead start trying to find spots where I could interact with nonChristians... a basketball gym in the winter time, Beat Nix, etc. somewhere, anywhere I could talk and try and help people beyond IWU. I would start another bible study/Know your faith group in Hodson that would meet weekly and we would talk. I would ago to bed at 2 and wake up at 8-9AM. I would understand my roommate and how to help him. I would be able to actually care/pray/nurture my guys. I would do the homework I cared about and I would definitely complete and finish the book I’m writing well! I would speak in chapel on the book 2nd Semester. I will have gone snow boarding once, trace will have visited, I will go to Cedar Point that week before I graduate or soon after, I will visit CA sometime soon, I will have bought steve a sword, I will have learned some Money Management Skillz. I would know what I wanted in a wife and if nothing else know that I lived my senior year without regrets as to how I acted with girls, how I did ministry, and how I enjoyed it. I would be physically active(personal need), wholehearted into my ministry(good for me and people I’m helping), more disciplined financially and just in general(needed for future), and God... God would be my answer. I would love to read His Word like every day it would seem like it was the first time I heard it and I couldn’t wait for more. Time would be an irrelevant factor when it came to listening or serving the Lord. God would be my reason for why I lived the way I did. God would be my security in the choices I would make. God would give me wisdom or the resources to know how to help those close to me. Lord give me wisdom. How do I minister and give myself to those in need without neglecting my family and those close to me? Please continue to surround me with people who want to love on those around them. Help me not to feel constrained by my relationships. Help them to be freeing, nurturing, and encouraging. Lord, help this prayer, these thoughts, to become a reality if they are your will. My Father, which art in Heaven, Hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory. Forever. Amen. Lord I trust you to act. Do your thing.