Tuesday, February 26, 2008

PhotoShoot

Do you ever have those places where you think, i just need to take pictures here? Well i do so here were a few places i stopped and just goofed around.

And yes... this is full proof that i am not a model or a photographer but i hope you appreciate the amateur at work!!!
My Bone

Wax museum

My and the hydrant

MiniMe

Looking to the Horizons :)

Is that what i look like mad?

Did i actually succomb to wearing pink?

What the junk?

In the Dark

Colors

Continuation

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Life in P-Town

Right now i am in Plymouth Indiana with my parents until i head back to New Zealand in May.
I have four main responsibilities
1. Developing my support team as a missionary
2. Intern at Plymouth Wesleyan Church
3. Part-time at the gym rock climbing wall
4. Master's work online through Liberty

I will be heading to North Carolina on a 10 day trip through March 2 so your prayers are appreciated.
That also means i may blog, although i am not sure how much time or access to internet i will have!

Monday, February 18, 2008

Growing up but I am horrible at boundaries

One of the things that has happened in this stage of my life is becoming aware of my capabilities and shortcomings. As expected sometimes this if fun and other times this is not so much fun.

It is nice to know I am a young adult: meaning I don’t have to everything figured out but that I am still in the learning process.

I learned that earlier this year. I am learning about finances. There is no doubt that I am not going to be stockbroker that makes millions or manages millions of accounts and I am okay with that. But sometimes I feel like i should be have a way better grasp on finances. It is definitely an area of learning and that is okay.
More Recently I am discovering my issue with boundaries: Before expectations and schedule determined this for me during school and work. Since I have been back from New Zealand my lack of boundaries and somewhat fluid schedule between support raising and part-time jobs have left me drained. Working somewhat out of the home right now I have discovered that I am having a hard time separating work and personal time. This allow me to constantly feel restless and actually accomplish less because there is not a designated time of FOCUS and REST but just a continual nagging of more to do.

God is teaching me. I was reading Boundaries by Henry cloud earlier this year and I think it is time I finish that book. All that to say. I am a young adult who is learning but doesn’t have everything figured out and as long as I am okay with that but willing to work, things will be just fine right now.

I have actually set a 9-5 tentative schedule that is in the trial stage this week.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Me and God not seeing eye to eye

So i was reading in 1 John today and came across verse 18 which read,

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment."

I disagreed with this statement because i had just written out my fears and i thought the verse should read

"....because fear has to do with disappointment"

I am not so worried about punishment, as I am disappointing God, myself, and others. What i realized is how worldly my perspective is to prioritize the success and approval of this world(1 John 2:15-17), yet once again, above the eternal perspective of God.

It is amazing isn't it?!? I am called a child of God. God has affirmed his presence in my life.
And he says we can know it by "the Spirit he gave us." (1Jn3:24)

Yet even now i feel like i have to worry and strive for more success that is good but probably more of my own stress and desires than God's immediate pressing on my life.

God, help me to prioritize your eternal perspective and approval on my life through your forgiveness before the worldly perspective and approval which is never to be fulfilled.

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Bible Verses I Don't Understand... Can you Help?!?

I was reading Ecclesiastes last night and there were two Scriptures that just didn't sit write .
I can come up with answers but my mind is not Convinced

Ecclesiastes 5:20
19 Moreover, when God gives any man wealth and possessions, and enables him to enjoy them, to accept his lot and be happy in his work—this is a gift of God. 20 He seldom reflects on the days of his life, because God keeps him occupied with gladness of heart.

In verse 20 below, I don't get why a man would seldom reflect on his days. Aren't memories good and wouldn't this man want to look back and remember the good days? Is the concept of this verse that: when I am 70 I won't wish I was 20 again because I will still be occupied & satisfied with my present work? (Eccl7:10)

Ecclesiastes 7:1b-2

... the day of death better than the day of birth.
2 It is better to go to a house of mourning
than to go to a house of feasting,
for death is the destiny of every man;
the living should take this to heart.

What does he mean here? What is the idea I am supposed to take to heart about death being the destiny of every man? Is he saying it is better to prioritize my time knowing i do not know how long i live instead of live freely like i will never die?

Appreciate any help or thoughts

Monday, February 04, 2008

Friends in Plymouth

I have been hung out with Taylor and brook and just met Adam(checking Taylor in the picture below). They are a fun crew.


I am at a place where i have enough going on that, i will mainly focus on work and responsibilities, but it is nice to have people who just enjoy life and want to hangout as well.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

I Did something tonight i have wanted to do since my youth group days!

Broomball!
This isn't a picture of us but it helps you get the idea if you have never played. You run around an ice hockey rink in your shoes with a flat plastic handle at the end of a stick or a broom taped up at the bottom and hit a softball sized rubber ball.

My body aches, my team sort of lost, i fell plenty of times and it was amazing!

Ever since youth group for the past 10 years i have heard of groups playing, but just never had the opportunity presented to me until the young adults group at Granger went tonight!

Definitely something i could play over and over again!
The falling and fun competition is a blast!